inside my skull

the eating compulsion the sex compulsion the vanity compulsionthe earthquake devotion the grid lines and boundariesand america and americanthe free the bold the fickled emulsionengraved in hands and arms and feet and wreaths and breaths you take from forests from treesa parasite immortal innate and emptylike your belly and your mouthwhat you're named froma tempestit's temp-tingalleghorical gore and rammificated redcream and blood swearing suckto struck, destruct, self-infructand sitting and staring throughdopple gray berrings, computerscontainers machines, infaredbeaming the mighty, chopped layersthrough custards and earth piecea simpleton mouth pieceexiting the fly eyed vomiting deceasedto cripple and dangle and crapple and manglemy arrogant flowered debacle debacledsick stalker ill walker hand nail footcock chalk spread on a sidewalkfor daisys, and childhoods and stickyand black ends and nail threadsor old things like train tracksand dust tracks or A tracksand FUCKING the sky with yourmetal com-pass heads or LICKINGits dreams from the screams of the vain steadsand your veins while they fillIN A WORLD OF DEVOID DEFILE devilleim clinging to flat lines and tearing your heart hillsflicking the ticking and straight SUCKING it untilyour suck chest is suck ill and your breathing is COMPLETELY DISTILLED under water engulfedand submerged because HE DID THIShe told me i was rotting and to hell with life I KNEW THIS"stop drowning the bloated, these problems are bad enough...dear"and so i took EVERY DAMNED TEAR and salt bathi snapped every etch of dampness to darknessLIKE AN UNBORN FETUS with wires and glass shredsAND I TORE THE FEELING FROM MY BODYand i was naked and bleeding and lying there in the lightningbecause that's the way he made me feelbefore i spent it alland before i spent it alland before i whored it all and fingered it all and fingered it alllemon squeeze sting to shush damning the bee hivestenciled organs, the rushuntying the torn and outlying the scornscalpled scattered scallions to mourna piece of life i wish not spentit allnot spending it allon a bible of mouth that i drowned in a stall.i drowned when you said so.i drowned in a stall.